I’m A Believer 

I’ve always heard that “friends fall off” when you get married and have children , and I honestly thought it was just a stupid cliche that everyone liked to claim was their own – but to an extent, I believe it and understand what that actually means now. For some reason people think that you…

What Do I Do 

Over the many years I’ve been writing, I’ve learned to not always write in the heat of anger or sadness or even happiness just because once that fire dims down maybe my opinion will be different or the situation may have changed. But on the other hand, sometimes I can’t get past things if I…

I Don’t Know What This Is 

I’m opening my blog up and writing to just see what comes out right now. Im not sure what my purpose is or how to get what’s going through my head in order, so I figured I would try this.  If I can recall correctly, I felt somewhere between lost and fine before I got…

A Mother’s Love 

When you’re a kid you don’t really understand what “a mother’s love is”. You think love is love and nothing more complex than that. To an extent, I realized how powerful my parent’s love for me was when I was a teenager and started to question how anyone could love me at all. In the…

I Didn’t Want To Talk About This

There are many reasons why I don’t want to talk about being married to someone in the military. People who don’t understand, can’t separate their idea of what a “military wife” is and what a “wife” is. The problem is that there’s no fucking difference. There are people with different motives, but that stands true…

The Week That Lasted A Month

I opened up my dashboard to look at when the last time I posted something was. It has been 10 days, and in those 10 days it has felt like a month. That seems to be the pattern of my lifeout here in Montana. I’ve lived here for not even 2 months and so much…

Marriage

I think about my blog a lot. I’m not well established yet and I wonder if I ever will be. I could write a lot about things that won’t ever matter and I’m sure some people wouldn’t mind, but that’s not what I want. I want to write about things that are meaningful and I…

That Thing No One Wants To Talk About

Depression. If you didn’t back out of this post, thank you. I am currently trying to write this while having a panic attack and it’s extremely hard for me not to get up and sit in front of a fan or lay on a bunch of ice packs because being cold somehow shocks me back…

Becoming An Esthetician & Where I Am Now

January 2015 was the start of my adventure to become a Master Esthetician. For those of you who aren’t familiar with what that is, an Esthetician is someone who specializes in skin diseases & disorders / skin care, hair removal / eyelash extensions, lasers, and makeup. You are required to study the functions and structures…